hoLy cRap!

To do or not to do?

That’s what I’m thinking from the moment I have read about the contest. Well, I thought, why not? I have nothing to lose anyway… So why should I, of all people, win this contest? I thought of sooo many things. But I don’t wanna overdo it, so I’ll just stick to the simple reasons that I have come up with. Like Charo Soriano, I am a volleyball addict (well I would like to assume that she is, hehe). We also have the same jersey number, and we’re both an outgoing team captain of our respective teams. Watching her play inside the court is like seeing a wonder woman in action. I’ll never forget when she continued to play despite her aching foot, she almost hit the bleachers just diving for the ball, that’s really something. Still playing without complaining. I myself am a player, so I know that what she does inside the court is really a great help. This is really cheesy, but I find myself close to tears everytime I watch the V-League (even just on television!) It’s really good watching the Lady Eagles play because you can really feel the teamwork there, and Charo has been the best team captain for me. I can see and feel her leadership. She’s really one great player, and I’m pretty sure that she will be missed. Well, I hope Charo gets to read this, even if I don’t win. But it sure is a treat if I did! It’s my birthday anyway. =)

for the volleyball addicts out there, check this out!

I received a text message yesterday saying that Lia’01 passed away yesterday morning. I was really shocked, I mean she’s so young, only my age. I agree with my batchmate Mykee that she’s one of the nicest senior sister. I can’t think of any negative things about her, maloko lang talaga pag tinopak. She’s really a good person, I must say, and maybe this happened for a reason. May her soul rest in peace.

It’s been a while since I last posted here, napansin ko lang. Well, the culprit is multiply. I really don’t have much to say, I’m just… Hmm.. Sad? Yes, I think. Kind of pissed din. I also don’t have that much energy to rant and rant so I’ll just make this one short. I didn’t intend to write a super dramatic, emotional, whatever post, anyway.

Ever felt so lost in your thoughts? So many questions, so many hesitations, just too much of pretty much everything. Its just so f’cking hard. No one to help you, nobody would, nobody can. Asking me now what my problem is? I don’t know, don’t ask me. I’ve got nothing to say. My head feels like exploding, overflowing with nonsense thoughts going in circles, wanting to be free from my now oversized head. Sometimes I wonder if sleep really is a good therapy. It’s not. Because the moment you wake up, there it goes again. Thinking about things, thinking about your f”cked up life, thinking of everything there is to think about…. Robots? I envy them. Coz they have no feelings. No tomorrows to worry about, lifeless. It’s just so damn hard, life is.

Some people live for the fortune. Some people live just for the fame. Some people live for the power…. Some people want it all but I don’t want nothin at all. If it ain’t you baby, if i ain’t got you baby….. Sittin here all alone with the light on, can’t help but think happy thoughts in order for me to do the things I’d normally do. Seems like eternity while waiting for the answers to my questions. I’m hurting deep inside, I know it, I can feel it deep within my bones. Don’t know what to do, don’t know what to say either. I feel heavy as though the whole world fell on my head. If taking the time off can mend and heal the pain then I would want just as much, not too little and not too much. Every second feels like my heart would burst or break into tiny pieces. I am so sad. Please somebody help me.

minsan sa buhay ng tao, dumarating sa puntong nasa ilalim ka ng gulong. ang saklap, di ba? pero ganon talaga. wala kang ibang magagawa kundi paghirapan ang pag angat mo sa lugmok na pinagkaluklukan sayo. ang saklap, di ba? pero ganon talaga. kadalasan yung mga bagay na akala mong pagaari mo naaagaw pa ng iba. ndi lahat ng tao kaibigan mo. pero wag ka, yung mga taong ndi mo inaasahang nagmamalasakit sayo sila pa ang nandon sa mga panahong ika nga’y nasa ilalim ka ng gulong. gulong ng palad? totoo nga kaya yun? buhay nga naman. ang saklap, di ba? pero ganon talaga.

another rainy day.. i hate it!! katamad tuloy pumasok pero hindi pwede umabsent so we’re left with no choice but to come to class. damn!

my goodness it’s been ages since i last posted something here! dumaan na yung birthday ko and all pero wala lang. ayun. WINDANG!!! tsaka HAGGARD!! yun lang ang masasabi ko hehehe. if ever may gustong manuod ng play, bli kayong tickets saken. hehehe. Tarugo 0, this August 9-11. Tuesday-Thursday po ito, 7pm. Yung isa pa eh sa September pa po.. Andami ko dapat sasabihin pero parang nakalimutan ko na dahil sa tagal kong i-post dito.

just tell me where it hurts now baby, and i’ll love you with a love so tender and if you let me stay i’ll love all the hurt away why is that sad look in you eyes why are you crying tell me now tell me now tell me why you’re feeling this way i hate to see you so down oh baby is it your heart ooh breakin’ all in pieces makin’ you cry makin’ you feel blue is there anything i can do why don’t you tell me where it hurts now baby and i’ll do my best to make it better i’ll do my best to make the tears all go away just tell me where it hurts now tell me and i’ll love you with a love so tender and if you let me stay i’ll love all the hurt away girl tell me, where are all those tears coming from why are they fallin’ did somebody somebody leave your heart in the cold you just need somebody to hold give me a chance to put back all the pieces take your broken heart make it just like new there’s so many things that i can do why don’t you tell me where it hurts now baby and i’ll do my best to make it better i’ll do my best to make the tears all go away just tell me where it hurts now tell me and i’ll love you with a love so tender and if you let me stay i’ll love all the hurt away baby, if you’d only tell me where it hurts i know i can make it better if i could wrap my arms around your heart
i’d would hold you tight, and let you know everything is gonna be allright so take a chance with me baby i dont wanna see you cry is it your heart ooh that’s breakin’ all in pieces makin’ you cry makin’ you feel blue is there anything i can do tell me where it hurts now baby and i’ll do my best to make it better i’ll do my best to make the tears all go away just tell me where it hurts now tell me
and i’ll love you with a love so tender and if you let me stay i’ll love all the hurt away…….haaayyyy…

How sweet it is to be loved by you..How sweet it is to be loved by you..I needed the shelter of someone’s arms, and there you were..I needed someone to understand my ups and downs, and there you were..With sweet love and devotion..Deeply touching my emotion..I just want to stop and thank you baby..I just want to stop and thank you baby..How sweet it is to be loved by you..How sweet it is to be loved by you..I close my eyes at night..Wondering where would I be without you in my life..Everything I did was just a bore..Everywhere I went it seems I’d been there before..But you brighten up for me all of my days..With a love so sweet in so many ways..I just want to stop and thank you baby..I just want to stop and thank you baby..How sweet it is to be loved by you..How sweet it is to be loved by you..You were better to me than I was to myself..For me, there’s you and there ain’t nobody else..I just want to stop and thank you baby..I just want to stop and thank you baby..How sweet it is to be loved by you..How sweet it is to be loved by you!!